The Mother Of My Child Is A Nut Bar [Part 1]

Alright. For those of you who DON'T know me, and my situation with my psychotic ex-girlfriend, hang onto your computer chairs because this is gonna be a wild story only fit for made-up drama novels. In 2005, I was incredibly stupid and let myself be suckered into a relationship with a complete psycho chick. Although I did not want to be with her for the ENTIRE time I was with her (almost 3 years), I was constantly manipulated and fucked around with so that I would stay with her all that time. She cheated on me several times, most or all times with dirty people (this is confirmed - they were pretty much all extremely dirty: Jared Murphy, Jon Dickey to name a couple.) ANYWAYS that part is irrelevant.
Bottom line: I've had enough of this retard's bullshit. I'm going to splash this story all over the net, and let everyone know what a crazy, psycho, sick person Amanda is, once n for all.
Now, while her and I dated, it was a rollercoaster of nuts-o proportions. When we would fight, for example, she would pull out her hair, punch herself in the head/face, she slammed her own hand in the back door of my house on purpose once on Xmas Eve, and this one is super great: she would tell me to leave our apartment, to which I would reply SURE! and I'd pack all my shit up and try to leave - but Amanda would be standing in the doorway, crying, begging me not to leave. Then I would be forced to move her out of my way so I could leave, I would just push her ever-so-gently to the left or right, you know, to get her to move, and she would FALL TO THE FLOOR SCREAMING REAL DRAMATIC OH MY GOD OH MY GOD YOU HURT ME I CANT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT OH MY GOD like a damn crazy nut bar, when I hardly moved her in the first place - pretending I hurt her to try and get me to feel bad. I never did, cuz I never hurt her for real. Even though I should have gave that bitch a smack or two a HUNDRED times over, I never EVER laid a hand on her once in the whole time I've known her. And believe me, it was hard, this coming from a dude who's never even been in a fight since like grade 6.
Anyways, moving along...I finally caught her sleeping with someone else, caught her red-vagina'd in bed with some french guy from quebec (I shook the guys hand and told him "good luck buddy!", burned my CD I came to burn, and left for good) - Best thing I ever did. To this day I thank God above EVERY DAY that I don't have to wake up lying next to that bag of douche! I still have nightmares about being back with her and being trapped in a house back in the boonies living together, scares the living shit outa me.
Amanda did numerous unspeakable things while we dated, and after. Once, I was leaving for work like I did every day, and we were fighting at the moment, so as I was on my way out the door, Amanda screams (in front of like half the apartment building who were out back smoking) "IF YOU FUCKING LEAVE I AM GONNA LEAVE TOO AND LEAVE ALYSSA HERE ALONE!! I'LL FUCKING DO IT YOU PIECE OF SHIT!" I remember the exact words, like it was yesterday. That wasn't the last time she threatened that. She did it again, a few months later, when we lived in a really nice apartment on Newcastle Blvd. This place was NICE, fully-furnished, free cable (AND there was already a tv there when we arrived), free internet, free EVERYTHING except rent and the power bill, which was in my name. Anyways, Amanda pissed it all away with ONE threat similar to the previous one. I was on my way to work, so I stopped at the police station on the way, and told them "Look, basically, my crazy girlfriend said she is gonna leave our apartment with the baby inside alone, she's a year old. I HAVE to go to work or I'll get fired, can you guys just go check it out? Its probably nothing, she's FULL of empty threats, but just check it out because you never know. Thanks" and that was it, so I thought.
Apparently, the landlord who lived in the same building as us, did not like the idea of the police being at her place, so when I came home around midnight, I was quietly informed that we had two weeks to vacate the premises and move our shit out. Yet another thing Amanda ruined that was good - wouldn't have mattered anyways though, I could have lived in a marble castle with a million dollars, but if I was in a relationship with Amanda, it would suck horribly anyhow.
She also threw out Xmas gifts I gave her in FRONT of my family...a gold chain (because 'you know I don't like gold!') a teddy bear ('pretty sure you know I already have this fucking teddy bear!') and i cant remember what the last one was.
Amanda caused my family ENDLESS hardships. Before me and her were even dating, I was in Fredericton for a couple weeks, and she called my grandparents (whom she didnt even know yet at this point, this was how they came to meet Amanda) to bail her out of jail at 4am. Classy, huh? I couldn't fuckin' believe it when I heard it - but thats not all, she STAYED at my grandparents house for like at least 3 days without even KNOWING them! I forgot all ABOUT that story until Grampie was telling someone about it recently.
Anyways, Amanda did TONS and TONS of crazy shit like that while we dated. She was nothing but a constant embarassment to me - you couldn't being her to parties, she'd get in a fight or state her opinion one too many times and make a fool out of both of us, you couldn't bring her ANYWHERE. It was like she was OUT TO EMBARASS herself. She thinks all the guys wanna fuck her, and that all the girls are either scared of her or want to be best friends with her. Her twin cousins are the same, and equally mistaken.
I moved away once I broke up with Amanda finally, to Fredericton, and lived on my own while working at a place called Avis Budget Group, reserving cars to Americans. During this time, Amanda would not let me see my daughter for 50 days - oh, sure, she kept SAYING "yeah come see her" but it was usually mingled with physical threats, or verbal confrontation. She does not KNOW how to be 'civil'. Whatsoever. She doesnt know what it means, I don't think.
And how could I forget Amanda's STUNNING welfare file? I've seen it, it's more than an inch thick...all the times police were called regarding Amanda and her bullshit drama, all the times she moved (11 times in a year and a half, sound like a good thing for a child to go through to you? My daughter went through it. Still is, because Amanda WILL move again in the next year. You can guarantee it.
One day, Amanda's care worker Lisa came into Amanda's apartment. It was past noon, around 1 or 2 pm, and Alyssa, the poor little thing, was in her crib, diaper drooping down to her knees with shit from an unchanged bum, eating a bag of uncooked Mr. Noodles (keep in mind, this child was a year old at the time, and eating UNCOOKED noodles in her crib). Upon further investigation, Lisa discovered also that there was a plastic shopping bag inside Alyssa's crib. Perfect thing for Alyssa to smother herself with, eh? Real friggin' smart. And where was Amanda?
In bed still. With her bedroom door closed, and the baby monitor set to "off".
This is all in her file, along with several other things.
On another occasion, Amanda FREAKED out at her own mother while the social worker was at her place, out in the parking lot yelling at the top of her lungs at Lisa, the care worker. You just don't fuckin' do that, yell at someone who is trying to help you, and also at someone who can make or break you in the parenting world. Dummy, she's lucky Lisa doesn't know how to do her job and isn't much brighter than Amanda is herself.
Oh, and let's not forget about THIS incident: pay attention, this one was in the Miramichi Leader newspaper even. Amanda freaked out at a Timberwolves hockey game, at her mother, and threatened to slit her mother's throat, all because she wouldn't drive her and her friends up to Red Bank to hang out for the night. My daughter was present during this death threat freakout, as were a few police officers who overheard her, and arrested her for Uttering Threats. She was placed under arrest and put into a police cruiser, and my 2 year old daughter was put into the cruiser ahead of the one she was in. Now, try to picture this: my little girl, 2 yrs old, 10:00 at night (why was my daughter out that late in the first place, her bed time is before then I believe, always has been), heading to the police station in a police car by HERSELF with a strange police man she didnt even know, probably scared to fucking death. The picture in the paper to go with the article was of Alyssa being held by a police officer while Amanda sits in the squad car behind them - the headline read "CHILD SAFE." - ALL OF THIS because Amanda didn't get her way.
A LOT OF PEOPLE SEEM TO SUFFER WHEN AMANDA DOES NOT GET HER WAY.
Now, to this day, I still have to deal with the problems that Amanda dishes out. Now first off, don't get me wrong: I will take my little girl ANY TIME. There has not been ONCE in her life that I didn't say "yes" when asked if I could take her for a night, or a weekend that wasnt my weekend (Amanda agreed ONLY to let me have Alyssa every OTHER weekend, she absolutely DETESTED the idea of joint custody. Wouldnt have it. Even though it wouldnt hurt anything and half/half is USUALLY not a problem to negotiate when the father WANTS to see his child and has no prior problems in his past, no criminal record (unlike Amanda), but whatever. I guess that ain't what counts, how much a parent LOVES their child. All that counts with Amanda is who's got her NOW full-time - we'll see how long that lasts is she keeps this shit up, won't we?
Anyways, Amanda has gone on now to have yet another child, thank god her new son also has a side of the family that has some sense in them in case Amanda can't keep it together, which she can't for long at a time, she's proved that over and over again. Amanda always gets me to come get Alyssa so she can get drunk for the weekend (I have solid proof of that, too - less than a month ago, she asked me to take Alyssa for a weekend that wasn't my weekend (like I said, I dont mind doing it at all, thats just more time to spend with Alyssa, to me) and then I found on her Facebook page her status saying "Time to get drunk all weekend!" I have the screenshot of it, timestamped and dated by Facebook, so she can't possibly deny it.
Bottom line: Amanda is not a good parent, she is NOT fit to raise Alyssa by herself, I should AT LEAST get her half the time, and if not THAT - I should have sole custody. That's all I have to say for now, I have plenty more stories and probably will post them in Part Two, if its necessary. I just thought it would be fair to let everyone know what a crazy person I have to deal with just to see my daughter on a normal level in life. Amanda makes it impossible for me to have a relationship with my little girl that is normal, she keeps fucking with Alyssa's head and its not right, its SO WRONG and PEOPLE ARE LETTING HER DO THIS. She shouldn't HAVE Alyssa, period!!! She doesn't even take care of her and I am scared she is gonna get hurt or sick or end up just as FUCKED UP as Amanda is!!
After reading all of what I just wrote (and believe me - its ALL 100% truth) , tell me this: wouldn't YOU be scared for your little girl????
Something needs to be done, and I don't have the power to do it. I just thought everyone should know who Amanda REALLY is, not who she lies and pretends to be. I laugh my heart out when her FB name says things like "cleaning the whole house, lv it" and then someone will comment "oh girl you're so strong, being able to clean the whole house, and take care of TWO kids AND a man too!" LOL as IF, Amanda can't even take care of herself. She only gets dressed 2 days a week!! She used to go to the grocery store in MY boxers for fucks sake, wearing my silk HEART boxers!! LOL Can you imagine that shit??? She really does stuff like that. Still does. She's lazy, immoral, wrong in every sense of the word - and she's DEFINITELY bipolar like her mother, which scares me more, because she CLEARLY has a serious mental disorder but won't get help for it, won't undergo treatment, won't ADMIT she's got something wrong with her.
Well, what do you guys think, just from reading about the things she does?